Friday, March 30, 2012

Feelings of Sadness and Despair

Hello everyone,

In a death, unfortunately, there is no next time. Not in this lifetime. You have to live the rest of your life knowing that you will never see that person again. For me-at least for a long time-I was the boy that woke up every Christmas morning, only to find out  there was no Christmas. There were no presents and there certainly was no happiness and joy. This would happen for a long time. 

For many months, this feeling of emptiness consumed me-consumed my every thought and emotion. Every reminder of the tragedy accentuated my feelings of loneliness and despair. I would get this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. Unfortunately, this was just the start of it. Many things transpired after these initial feelings of sadness and despair.  

Even though I was going through my own problems and issues at the time, I still put a smile of my face. Smiling does not necessarily mean you’re happy. Sometimes it just means that you’re strong. I was very good at masking my sadness and depression. For the most part, I was very good at hiding my true feelings. When I did hang out with friends and family, I put on an act. I acted happy when I wasn’t. People thought I was happy when I simply felt distressed. 


“Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it”  Charles R. Swindoll

Thursday, March 22, 2012

How would you cope with the loss of a loved one?

Hello everyone,

In every death, a new life for the loved ones left behind is created whether you like it or not.  There comes a point in time when people have to decide whether or not they are going to move on or stay put.  Will you let the feeling of their non-existence consume your thoughts and emotions or will the manifestation of their spiritual being provide a sufficient enough means to face life in the aftermath of their unfortunate departure?  

The effects of death can impact a person in a number of ways. How you let it impact your life could be the difference between happiness and depression. I came to the point in my life where I couldn’t simply live the same life I had been living for a few years.  

My mother was an elementary school counselor and I saw how much joy was brought to her over the years. Making a difference in a child’s life was the ultimate happiness for her.  

A friend of hers told me at her funeral that she had a very unique ability that not many possess. This particular friend was an elementary school counselor herself and admitted to me that she couldn’t do all the things that my mom could do. She stated that my mom had the ability to read the kids and really empathize with them. My mom cared about her students so much and that was obvious when you saw how the kids reacted to her when they saw her.  

I encountered a lot of ups and downs as a result of my mother's death. A lot of painful and impactful things happened after she passed. My book will go over all my experiences in extreme detail. Anybody that has ever lost a loved one, will be able to relate to it.  

“Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it”  Charles R. Swindoll

Wednesday, March 14, 2012


Hello everyone,

I just wanted to write a quick message today and wish my cousin Jaime a Happy Birthday. She would have been 34 today. She passed away in a car accident a few years ago. She was a very strong person just like my mom. She was a great person and I know my mom and her are looking down on us from heaven.  

“Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it”  Charles R. Swindoll

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Editing begins

Hello everyone,

I have officially finished the rough draft of my manuscript.  It is currently just over 52,000 words and 250 pages.  The ending of the book was extremely hard for me to write because it is pretty darn emotional.  However, I am very pleased with it.  

So now editing begins.  Needless to say, my manuscript will probably change multiple times as I edit and edit the heck out of it.  I have a buddy that is going to help me do it.  Also, I will most likely hire someone to do it too.  Editing for grammar is the easy part.  Editing for content will be a different story.  Although, I am very pleased with what I have, a few things are going to be shuffled around I'm sure.  I hope it's not too hard of a process.  My goal is to be done editing by the end of April.  The goal is to start getting it to the masses by May.  I can't wait!  I will keep everyone updated.  Furthermore, I am going to start putting various chapters from the book on here.  I hope you enjoy and thanks for reading.  

“Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it”  Charles R. Swindoll